Monday 29 October 2012

Update on race weight & stuff....

My weight is currently at 56.4kg. This is a 6.6kg weight loss from 63kg (measured on the 10th June 2012 where my body fat % was at 32%). Not sure what my body fat % is currently sitting at but I am sure it is within the healthy range.

My goal was to reach 55kg by Noosa and then holding it for Shepparton but it doesn't appear to be getting there in time - no big deal.

On Friday night, I also attended my work's annual awards night where I was shortlisted for the NDY Excellence Award for Contribution to Society for my charity work as well as encouraging students into the field of engineering (especially for females).

Here is a photo from the night.



Short note - I didn't win.

Pack Pack Pack!

Started to pack for Noosa yesterday.

As we will be training through the week leading up to and the days after the race, there is so much to take!

Cleaned the bike yesterday (using the bike stand which I got from Tim and Nola as an early bday/xmas present) - so easy to use and just makes everything so much easier to handle! Rode around the block and then started to disassemble the bike and wrapped it onto the frame.

BIKE IS PACKED
Oh - before I forget - spent a day at Bunnings as I had to replace the crappy wheels that came with the Scicon bag (I think they have improved the wheels since then) but mine were destroyed from the first use (Noosa last year). Changing over the wheels is not an easy task when you live by yourself and own little to no tools. First I had to undo the nut (had to go to Bunnings to buy a spanner), then undid one wheel - went back to Bunnings to see what I can replace it with - turns out, most wheels have a 4 bolt assembly and not a single 10mm bolt so I could only buy one type. The wheel did not come with nuts and I couldnt reuse the broken ones so I had to buy nuts which could fit onto 10mm bolt. But as the nut just screwed unto the bolt freely - I had to double nut!....there was about 3 visits to Bunnings on Sunday with only 1 purchase of a sausage in bread!

I also bought plumbers insulation in 3 sizes to help protect the frame, forks and handle bars. Due to the size of the bike (small), there is no need for me to remove anything but the wheels - sweet as!

Will start to pack training clothes and normal (civilian) clothes over the next few evenings and hopefully have all my shit together by Tuesday night. Lucy (the little dog) gets to go to someone's house to play for a week.

Started to get anxious thinking about the actual race. Looks like a wetsuit swim too (sad face).

Friday 26 October 2012

Racing - It's coming!

Within the last few weeks, we have noticed a buzz of excitement and nervousness from the squad - especially for the first timers.

The term first timers applies to all of us - our first triathlon season, our first sprint distance, our first olympic distance, our first half ironman or our first full ironman. I guess we are all a bit nervous and anxious as we are all stepping into an unknown territory and comfort zone.

Ask 99% of the people who train throughout the winter months with the squad, we all really enjoy training through winter. It gets us out off the couch, we are all doing something good for our bodies and we are doing it in the company of like-minded people. Most of us dislike the actual race but we still need it as a goal! I dislike it as it brings out the worst of my anxiety. I also don't enjoy it as it also brings out the (not so nice part) in some people's personalities - how competitive they are. I don't enjoy the competitiveness between squad members and this is something which the coaches remind us all the time to avoid - as it brings out the animosity which is not the atmosphere we want at Tri Alliance.

My first actual triathlon race for 2012-2013 will be happening in 9 more sleeps. It is the Noosa Olympic Distance triathlon held up in QLD (1.5km swim, 40km ride, 10km run). This will be the 2nd time I have participated in this event and my 3rd Olympic Distance Tri.

Speaking to Coach Greg, he wants me to just use this event as a training race. He said to forget about my goal of going under 3 hours as the main focus of the race but race to how I feel and how I would race Shepparton 70.3 two weeks after Noosa.

I will be arriving in Noosa on Wednesday 31st Oct (early). I guess we will just settle in, buy any essentials we need for the next few days and then it will be the start of the training-holiday. We will have an open water swim session in the afternoon over the course which is always good to get familiar with what to spot and where to swim.

Thursday will be a 2 hour ride for Long Course athletes in the morning, rest/recover and then a long run in the afternoon 1-1.5 hours.

Friday, a (very) early morning long (3-4 hour) ride for LC with 20-30 min run off the bike, race registration from 3pm onwards and then it is the swim briefing again followed by a Tri Alliance race briefing.

Saturday will be Tri Alliance photo shoot followed by a very very very easy training session followed by our Tri Alliance pre-race breakfast. Bike check in from 10am onwards (will be doing it late like last year to avoid bikes being moved).

Sunday - race day! (followed by easy 30-45min run after race for LC - not 100% sure on how this is possible). Post race activities will kick off from 4pm onwards.

Monday - afternoon swim

Tuesday - LC will be riding for 1.5 - 2 hours plus a run off the bike. I am not planning on joining in the Melb Cup party so I will use this time for blog updates or just lying on the beach to get an even tan.

Wednesday - Swim in the morning, fly back to Melbourne.

My race start is 8:05am (about an hour later than last year) - flouro yellow swim cap. Hopefully I will be finished before 11am. Fingers crossed I will not be spending too much money at the expo this year!

Monday 15 October 2012

My quickest Half Marathon - A Race Report

One of my (long term) goals was to run a half marathon under 120min. Some of you reading this post think it's an easy task - something which you (yourself) can do with your eyes closed or even think that it is something which I could smash out. The issue is, running (with speed) is not my strength. I am short (158cm) and I have small legs and no hips so my strides are not very wide and my cadence is actually quite high.

Like one of my squad friends Andy, we are like Diesel engines, we are slow but we are fuel efficient and can last for a long time out there.

The days leading up to the Melbourne Marathon Festival were not ideal. I didn't disclose this to anyone prior to race day as I didn't want to play the sympathy card but I started to have issues with my guts and my left knee. I had a small bout of gastro eating some bad food on Tuesday night and for 24 hours, I could not eat or drink properly and could not keep anything down (or in), even with water. Had a relatively easy training day on Wednesday with only swimming in the morning but it was tough trying to not throw up in the pool. I drank as much electrolytes as I could, when I could. The other thing which started to bother me was my left knee. I started to get a pain on my knee cap which was noticeable when I drive (my manual car). A person like me with no physiological knowledge didn't do anything about - ice, heat, massage?! I didn't have the time nor the cash to see a physio before the weekend so I decided to just back off the load on the knees leading up to the big run.

Thursday evening was a taper run and I just paced myself comfortably at about 6:30min/km pace and did about 7km in 45min with no efforts. The knees were noticeable but nothing too painful to handle.

The days leading up to Sunday were average. My gut started to feel better and I had a small 50km ride on Dale on Saturday with no run off the bike. I didn't let the legs rest as I had a small adventure to Melbourne's Ausbike Expo at the Royal Exhibition Centre. Thankfully I didn't look around too much at bikes and only walked away with small items:
  • New messenger bag which I am currently using as a handbag (more practical)
  • A cute bicycle necklace
  • Aussie Butt Cream
  • Nathan fuel belt (2 flask carrier)
I did speak with some of the reps from Look at length regarding one of their full carbon bikes. Currently, I have been eyeing off matt black full carbon bikes (the ones with the carbon weave throughout) and one of them which I had been fantasising about is a Guerciotti Eureka which costs about $7grand with Chorus group set. That bike would be so sweet to ride!

Anyways back to my run...
Typical to the lead up to any major events, I had a pretty bad nightmare about this race. To ensure that this nightmare did not come to fruition, I got to the MCG around 6:30am (my race started at 8am). I had my breakfast in the car and on the way to the G where I dropped off my bag and went to the bathroom twice before making my way casually down to the start line to watch the marathon guys as well as the 10km runners leave. I saw a few Tri Alliance people (past and present) along the start line both running and supporting.

I decided to start on the left side as I needed to pace myself during the warm up. It was a nervous moment for me as I looked around and it appeared that everyone looked so much fitter than me. I felt like a hack in the field.

Because I stop at every drink station, I ran near the 1:50 pace runners (allowing myself a few minutes to walk at the drink stations and to be able to finish under 120min), this proved to be difficult to pace with so I ended up just running to how I felt. I decided to not have my pace showing on my Garmin and ran like how Greg taught us - run to feel and I just had the Time showing so I could note my 5km, 10km times. I saw a few Tri Alliance guys in the field and where/when I could say Good Luck - I did. The first 10km of my run felt great, I noticed that my pace was good (maybe too good so early in the run). The run through Albert Park lake was when my calorie alert first came up at 300Cal and I was no where near a drink station. As I have been experimenting with some nutrition, I decided that I would consume my gel slowly and hopefully enough to last me to the drink station so I could wash it down my dry throat better. My sugar levels were evidently low and this is where I fumbled (with my visor) and dropped my hairclip. To be honest, I don't really wear a visor on my long runs but always do during an actual event. A slight disturbance in my run - I had to pick up my hairclip whilst dodging other runners and walked to the side to fix up my fringe so it would flap on top of my head above the visor (I hate that look). This gave me some time to compose myself but I lost about 30 seconds doing so. The next 5km was good, I had dropped off my pace but kept running. Around the pitt stop at Albert Park was where I saw the 2:00 pace runners on the other side and this is where I panicked as I wanted to stay ahead of this pack! Running on St Kilda Road towards the city, I increased my pace comfortably and thank God it was also slightly downhill.
The loop around the Arts centre was where the wheels came off, I had about 3-4km left to go and I was struggling. I decided to take my last gel for the day at this point to get me through but I had to walk about 10m. The run through the park and the final stretches along St Kilda Rd was where the 2:00 pace runner ran past me. At this point (to be completely honest) I lost the plot. I thought the goal of running a half marathon under 120min was all lost. I nearly cried at my own failure. Had I not trained enough during the year? Did I start too fast? What will people think when I tell them that I didn't achieve this goal? Will I have to do another half marathon again next year to tick off this goal?...until I realised that it was only 1:45 and I had 2+ more km to go. Thank God I could still do basic mathematics I calculated that if I could stick to a 6-6:30min/km I could still get under 2 hours.

I had done this run 2 years ago and completely forgot about the final bridge you had to run up before making a sharp turn to run down the straight and then into the MCG. My legs at this point felt like hot needles pulsating throughout but I knew that I needed to run faster. The faster I could do this, the faster I would finish (below my cut off time).

When we finally reached into the hallowed turf of the G, I took a few deep breaths and sprinted to the end with everything I had. I didn't look pretty at all. When I stopped my Garmin as I crossed the line, I was happy that I did 21.1km under 120min (albeit with only 1:20 to spare).

When I stopped running, I was sweating pretty bad, it had been a hot morning for a run and that was when I started to notice the small painful areas of my body from where chaffing started to occur - on my chest where I had my asthma pump and a small bag for my nurofen, my chest where the heart rate monitor was placed was actually bleeding and under my arms where it rubbed on my singlet was also covered in blood. It was not a pretty sight.

I lined up to retrieve my finishers medal and found some of the guys from TA and we walked outside to where a small group were standing to cheer on the rest of the runners. After standing around for 2-3 hours or so, I decided to head home to soak and eat some real food. The rest of the day was spent on the couch watching Kona DVDs from 2008-2011 and getting updates from friends who are in Kona.

Now that I have ticked off this goal, I am looking forward to Noosa and Shepparton.
1) Noosa - finish this race under 3 hours
2) Shepparton - finish this race (full stop).

I may look into doing the full marathon (alone) next year as I really enjoyed running long distances (especially out at Fairfield) - will assess soon enough when Ollie gets back and I will talk to him about it. I will probably aim to finish a marathon within 4:15-4:30.

My first marathon distance will be after a 3.8km swim and a 180km ride in March with no timing expectations but to be a FINISHER.

Before I forget, the knees were good (enough) during the run and I saw a physio this morning who said that it was just swollen with some bleeding from overuse - ice and voltaren should do the trick.

Kona World Championship winners for 2012 - Pete Jacobs (Aussie) and Leanda Cave (born Aussie but races under GB who is also my personal favorite).

Friday 12 October 2012

FEAR - Part 2

Following on from my previous post about Fear (of Failure), my second biggest fear that I have in life (and in the sport of Triathlon) is the Fear of the Unknown.

I have a slight OCD tendencies (like any triathlete isn't) - I do have certain routines and I do things a certain way as it comforts me. Whenever I am on some topic ranging from looking at a new bike, wetsuit, training schedule, race, nutrition, rental property, dogs, tattoos, you name it...I will google it to death until I am satisfied that I know everything about it before I make any decision(s) or I find another topic to be obsessed about. I don't like to be placed in a situation where I am not aware of what I have to do or say and I hate being under prepared.

Because of my need to know what is happening all the time - I am a good planner and I rely on facts. I don't like to wing it. I book things in advance as I don't like to leave things to the last minute and expect/rely on people to help you out. Good example of this, is accommodation for triathlons and holidays. With the lack of spare time a triathlete has, why leave these things to the last minute and expect that things will be available? Book it when you register for the event, no need to stress, no need to sleep in cars!

The fear of the unknown is one of the reasons why it has taken me such a long time to be comfortable in the open water. My fear in the open water is not only related to the creatures swimming in it but also the possibility that I will be swimming towards the middle of nowhere and not being able to get back into shore. Whenever we do open water swimming in training, I need to have a marker to swim towards. I would be more comfortable about swimming in deep water towards a marker than swimming along the shallow shoreline without one.

Although I am relatively comfortable now about being in the ocean (conquering my fear when I swam the Big Bay Swim this year 2012 from Port Melbourne to Williamstown), the thought of the unknown of what is floating/swimming beneath my body still freaks me out. I have established several coping mechanisms regarding these thoughts, they include imagining the sea creatures as cartoons (like spongebob square pants) through to singing songs (such as GnR's Sweet Child of Mine) in my head to take my mind off images of dead carcasses or even worse - pools of jellyfishes which may be swimming beneath me. Mind you, the sight of a single jellyfish in the water still freaks me out. Luckily we have had a decreased number of them over the last few years.

I do still have mild anxiety attacks regarding doing things which I have never done before. But I have learnt a few coping mechanisms to help me through. Doing triathlon training and racing itself has set some of those anxieties aside.
The fear of the unknown and the obsessive need to learn about everything has also played a (good) part for me as a coach. I do consider myself a knowledgeable person in terms of giving people advice regarding triathlon. I do have access to all the training programs in the squad ranging from beginners through to advance full ironman so I know what training schedules people are working on and so I can provide advice if people have questions. I won't provide answers unless I am 100% sure of what I am stating is correct - state facts.

I suppose this fear has made me the person that I am today - I pay attention to detail (obsessively), knowledgeable, reliable and like to have things organised well in advanced.

Friday 5 October 2012

FEAR - Part 1

Fear [noun]: A distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined;
This is a very honest and candid post. I have wanted to post this for some time now and I guess after watching this You Tube clip, I finally saw that my fears are not out of the ordinary and what I am feeling is actually normal - hey if these pros have the same fears then it must be right?

See, I have no fear of spiders or bugs, I do have a slight fear in heights but my biggest fears are the fear of failure, the unknown and last and the biggest is being alone.

Due to the length of these entries, I have decided to split it into 3 parts. This one is about the Fear of Failure.

My fear of failure stems from my childhood and being Chinese, the pressure to be the best was driven into us (Chinese kids) since we could count from 1 to 10. All Chinese families strive for their children to the the top of the class, now when you have an entire class of Chinese kids, can you imagine the stress we have about being on top?!

My earliest memories are not pleasant ones unfortunately. I remember this particular day - I wasn't able to memorise my times-tables correctly and all I could remember was my mum being disappointed in me. Now being Chinese (born and grew up in Malaysia until I was 9), you would know your 1 through to 12 times-tables (multiplies) before you would start school. So before the age of 5, I knew them off the top of my head. I still do my mathematics in Chinese (in my head). I find it quicker and now, for the life of me, cannot do any maths if you ask me to say it out loud (in English). Now, what my parents did was not out of the ordinary (for Chinese families) so no need for alarm bells or the need to call anyone to report it, it was just a way of life.

This is why Chinese kids are so good at maths, we know maths before we start school. My fear of failure is not only letting myself down but more importantly - my parents. Whenever we would receive our report cards from school, it would always be the question of "What were you placed in class?" - In Malaysia, all students within a class were placed in rankings. This ranking system would be determined by your homework, tests and exams. I would always be placed in top 3. Top 3 was a pretty big deal but there was extra pressure to be number 1. This meant that you were the smartest in the class and no one else is better than you. From memory, I had been placed in more 2nd positions than 1st or 3rd. I felt that unless I was placed 1st, I was not good enough for my parents and I had failed them in all the sacrifices they had made.
When we first arrived in Australia in 1990, I was struggling with the language and when my parents found out that I was placed in ESL (English as Second Language), they made it clear that I was not to stay in this class for long and I had to study extra hard on the side to get into mainstream English. Mind you, I excelled in maths and was top of the class for Grade 4 that they had to put me into Grade 5/6 maths as I was getting 100% on everything. I did study extra hard in English and did manage to prove to the teachers that I could read and write at a normal Australian level and proved to them (my parents) that I was not a failure.
When I came to Melbourne from living in Papua New Guinea (93-97) for Yr11, my parents made me promise that I would excel in my studies and prove to them that bringing the whole family out of Malaysia was not a waste of money and time. I made sure that I studied hard whilst defending for myself as I was out in Melbourne away from my family. Not only did I have to do well in school, I had a part time job of 20hours/week in order to not burden my parents with the need for financial support. Prior to the release of our Yr12 ENTER scores, I was so stressed that I had failed my parents that I started to look into what I could do after Yr12. Questions in my head were raised - should I have concentrated more on my studies? Did I make the right choices in working to not burden my parents? When I received a score of 95.45, I cried.

Fast forward some years later, this fear of failure is still present in my (triathlon) life. I don't like to fail, especially in front of people. I don't like being laughed at and I don't like to be made a fool. My first ever triathlon would be classified as a failure. It was a disaster from the start (the swim) and that failure drove me to join a triathlon squad to prove to myself that I could finish and finish well. This was in 2010 and believe it or not, I am still proving to myself that I deserve to still do this sport and that I am good enough to be called a triathlete. Not only do I have a fear of failure as a triathlete, I also have a fear of failure as a coach. If I don't do well in my training, my races and also during my coaching sessions, am I really good enough for this sport, do I give it enough respect and also to represent Tri Alliance? Am I a good enough coach if I am not the best in the squad? Am I a good enough triathlete if I just participate in these events rather than having a good crack and actually race one?
My fear of failure is not great for my self confidence. This must change for me to do well in the sport and to push beyond my comfort zone. Coach Greg, Sarah, Ollie and recently my family (yeah, I know, Asian parents encouraging their daughter in sports - rare) have been great in instilling my abilities and always encouraging me to excel beyond what I think are my limits.

I have been told by others that I need to trust in myself, instill some self-belief that my consistent training will allow me to succeed in my triathlon races.

Train. Trust. Succeed.

A Spanner.

A spanner has been thrown into works...

I was suppose to be riding the Kinglake ride this weekend (Saturday) and due to the weather forecast, Supersprint may change it to Sunday.

Thinking about what events I have coming up, I have made an executive decision to no longer do the Kinglake ride and do a long 5 hour ride on the TT bike (Dale) instead as it is what I need for my triathlon races. I also need to spend more time "running off the bike" so I must also include a 3-5km run off the bike on Saturday.

This Sunday will be my last long run before the half marathon next week. Will need to do a (relatively quick) 15km.

This change of plans is also agreed to (as the best for my training) by Coach Greg so it reduces the anxiety I have regarding the choices I make for long course triathlon training.

Monday 1 October 2012

A post from a newbie

I received a post from the Tri Alliance facebook page which made my day.


There is no secret training formula with running - It's pretty simple but often not taught. I learnt these skills from doing the Tony Benson run sessions about 18 months ago.
  • First you need to learn how to run slowly to enable you to run fast
  • Jog on the spot - you will be landing forefoot/mid foot. This is the natural way your feet should be landing on the ground
  • Use this to propel your body forward
  • Arms should be bent around 85 degrees.
  • Wrists should be relaxed (like you are holding onto some eggs)
  • Elbows to move back (not side to side)
  • Run tall
  • Always smile
Easy.