Sandy Point half marathon is 16 days away and I am absolutely
engulfed in an ocean of anxiety. The last few weeks haven’t been great.
Work has started to pick up so I have had to spend more of
my energy into it and by the end of the day, I am so tired and my sessions have
been inconsistent and crude. I have been sick with both fatigue and a (common)
cold. The fatigue started last Saturday 1st Aug when I was struck
down with something which made my heart rate beat strong and fast, painful migraines
and throbbing legs. Then on Tuesday 4th my cold started and I was in
bed for days.
I am stressing out as this weekend is suppose to be my
pinnacle distance before I taper off next weekend and the actual event the week
after. I wasn’t able to run 20km last
weekend due to being sick, I planned out a 3 x loop and could only finish one
before my feet cramped, vision blurred and my heart felt like it was about to leap
out passed my tongue and my pace was well over 6min/km.
I know I can bring myself over 21km but I am stressing about
the pace. I need to be running at an average of 5:20min/km to be < 2 hours.
I might need to reassess my goals closer to the date but I just really really
really want to achieve this just one more time. The World doesn’t end if I don’t
make this but it will just eat me up inside for another year like it has
previously for the last 2 years. I don’t have anyone to blame but myself – I have
not been consistent in training and I tend to go “easy on myself” rather than
push beyond my comfort zone as I hate feeling the pain and being injured.
Fingers crossed that I get to do some form of running
training this weekend and from next week, I will be able to tick off the small
goals I have set for myself.
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